I was hospitalized for 7 days this past March – and it never
happened.
Here is a little bit of background: I am 45 years old and I
have schizophrenia. To be specific, I have schizoaffective disorder-bipolar
type combined with clinical depression and generalized anxiety disorder. I work
very hard to stay as stable as I can. I take my medications despite a paranoia
about pills being poison. I keep my regular appointments with my psychiatrist,
my therapist, and my general practitioner. On good days I can drive and go meet
someone for coffee. On bad days it is an accomplishment just to get dressed and
feed myself. If I am lucky, I have more good days than bad.
Sometimes, despite all my attempts to stay stable, I have
very bad days. I was having a bad day and one of my stronger delusions started
to take over. I was able to recognize that it was getting too bad for me to
handle and my mom got me to the ER just in time for it to blow up into full
psychosis. I was given emergency medications to calm me down and I was admitted
to the Behavioral Medicine Department.
And this is where I disappear. You see, the so-called
Behavior Medicine Department (B-Med for short) is really the short-stay psychiatric
lockdown ward. And you are invisible to the outside world. No one – not even
doctors – can call in or even know you are there unless they have a code. All
records are kept separate from other medical records. It is an isolated bubble
designed to keep the patients calm and get them the specific treatment they
need. It really does work, and I left a week later with my medications tweaked
and my mind back under my control.
A few weeks later I had a regular appointment with my
general practitioner. They had no record of the change in my medications, which
was strange. I got the records updated and then waited to see the doctor. We
talked about a few things and then I mentioned that my anxiety was still up
after the hospital stay, but I was working on it. And he had no idea what I was
talking about. He checked my patient records and all it had was the ER visit.
Then I mentioned that the stay had been in B-Med and he just nodded. Psychiatric
hospital stays, he said, are never put in general patient records. They are
kept separate and he had no access. And he was not allowed to add anything
about it to the record, even though we were talking about it in our visit.
Let’s think about that for a moment. My general practitioner
has no access to my psychiatric treatment records. The fear of someone finding
out I have a mental illness and was treated for it in the hospital is so strong
that my own doctor can’t know about it.
During Mental Health Month there is a lot of talk about
breaking the stigma surrounding mental illness. Well, there is a long way to
go. If they can’t even talk about it between doctors, how are we going to talk
about it in public? How are we going to get integrated health care if my
hospital visit essentially never happened?
I have schizophrenia. I want all of my health care providers
to know that. And so should anyone else with a mental illness.
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